Sepanjang me pregnant...start dr first time me tahu..tak abis2..hati me hurt..dek kerana perangai laki me yang selfish and cruel nie..and me tak pernah nampak jalan yang dia boleh change..and yet..me kesian baby dhia..belum apa2...mcm2 dia kena dgr apa me rasa towards her papa...am sorry DHIA..mak just cant help it and talk about it..start from 2 weeks pregnant and papa let me carry tong gas sorang2...belum kira mak kena buat semua household and he never helps...sbb pada dia he is the one who bring the money in..balik mesia at least..its heals a bit sbb i'd been surrounded with my family and fren..end the only fren that i met is wanana..sbb papa say no..cant go out..even the last time i went to wan;s place..dah jadi issue besar sbb papa tak nak mak kuar2 umah..what did he expect..i dok umah saja..OMG...stress nya mak rasa...and nak torture mak...papa tak nak kasi kita duit dah...how dhia..kita nak survive until at least end of april..kalau ada rezeki dhia mak akan keje awal may...hopefully mak keje awal may..even kalau mak belum cukup 44 days confinement..mak nak keje dah..mcmana kita nak survive...i think mak will miss ur 8 mths check up...sbb mak cant afford..mak nak beli menda makan pun, mak berkira sgt sekrg..sbb tu pun mak tak nak keluar jumpa kwn2 mak..sbb org kenal mak as org tak berkira and yet mak kena berkira sekrg sbb we dont even have money..nak pinjam pah and mytos..banyak sgt dah mak pinjam rasanya..tapi bila mak ikir banyak lagi org yang teruk dr mak and they survive...bukanmak tak cari keje masa mak pregnant nie tapi..takde org nak hire mak sbb perut mak dah besar...
inilah silap mak dhia...esok kita kena survive berdua..mak dah tak nak letak apa2 hope kat papa dhia..am sorry dhia...looks like menda kecik yang mak buat.papa exaggerate sbb nak escape dr bg kita belanja...and dhia..mak hope dia keluar kat dunia nie nanti, tak kisah lah atas tilam emas or normal bed..u'll be a good daughter...mak memang ada dhia je sekarang..and semua untuk dhia..
mak sayang dhia infinity
