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Genap 2 tahun my husband is a house husband - even though takde lah buat keje rumah pun hehehe but at least adalah menda yang kena handle sendiri without me letak depan muka lagi. Technically he has a company and share with his BFF tapi i dont know where are they heading to. As a wife I only pray that Allah buka kan jalan and tunjuk what is best for him his company and we as his family.

Currently bila TERPAKSA masuk ke property line since 2013, i started to love this job a lot. when i said i love this job, meaning i can go to Sales Gallery almost everyday tanpa mengeluh atau rasa terpaksa langsung. Maybe aku rasa that is where i got my ME time. And to make it complete i'll drag my kids to be with me during weekend

We have lot of projects coming in, gred A developer is yet in our list but by having Gred B developer is good enough for me. as a start they appoint me as project manager for the project team. Maybe my Choleric Sanguine personality suit me so well for the post. hahahhahha... I am more than happy but bila masuk kena haap bermacam karenah developer yang tak berkesudahan and your own team members and agents..menyampah juga, but semua menda sum up as GOOD EXPERIENCED to me.

Paling besar bila aku try approach social media influencer untuk promote project aku, sekali the things that he ask from me is melebihi apa yang aku boleh bagi. isyh sangat tak logik. and bila tak dapat buruk plak nama aku kat geng nya. masa tu satu team sangat down sebab dia dah memburukan the project just because we didnt fulfill his request.tapi alhamdulillah dia dah minta maaf pun on his birthday at his status.so now kosong kosong.

Ramadhan 2014

Dah dua dah anak aku. Anana and anyiel.after all the sadness, imbalance hormonr, drama..i manage to go through this 5 years of marriage...macam2 keje aku dah buat..hopefully this property agent suit me well. My aim is to settle my debt, fulfill my mum wish, help the two brother bear finish schooling, an enough saving for myself and buy at least a property for my rainy day..

Ya Allah permudahkan lah urusan hambamu ini..turunkan lah rezeki untuk ku seperti hujan lebat yang turun dr langit, jika ia jauh di bawah keluarkan lah ia, jika ia jauh dekatkan lah padaku..jika ia susah permudahkan lah ia nya untukku...Aammiinnn ya rabbal alamin..

Post bangun sahur

bad day

fuh giler lah hari nie..start dgn malam tadi ..tatak beyak at 1am..salin pampers tatak..adik plak beyak at 2am..tatak bgn 4 kali for nenen..adik pun sama..nenen dekat 4 kali jugak..pagi nie bangun lambat around 7.30am..siap2kan diri dengan muka sembap..pdhal dalam hati dah rasa malas nya nak buat apa2 hari nie..tapi fikirkan ada keja nak buat..pegi gak ler..sekali turun lif , tatak sangkut dalam lift..punyalah panik..siap suruh sorang mamat tunggu kat 1st floor..kot2 tatak kuar balik kat 1st floor..yang mak berkejar pg g floor...sampai kat g loor pintu lift tak buka...nasib mamat yang tunggu kat 1 st floor,dengar..ada budak nanges kat 3rd floor...nasib tatak bijak, pintu lift terbuka tatak terus kuar...adoi..selalu pg2 ramai org...nie takde org pulak..mak bekejar tgkt 3 plak..adik atas kendong..diam je...tgk2..tatatk tgh lihat ke bawah smbil menjerit memanggil memek...adoi..tak pernah rasa hati nak jatuh mcm nie sekali..tgk muka tatatk dgn hingus2 nanges...adoi...peluk2 tatak terus diam,..tak nanges lgsg dah..ingatkan dia tak nak naik lift dah..tgk rileks je dia turun lift lepas tue..

masuk keta dah nyanyi2...

sampai bank rakyat dah rasa hari nie tak syoknya...sekali salah percaturan...sebab mood sekrg bila dah terbeli emas bukan di atas wang keuntungan..dah rasa sangat tak happy..sekrg tgh pening nak musing balik..adoi lah...what a day...

Macam2 Hal

My Syembam dah setahun pun..after many months i didnt burst out my feeling.Main reason of course I have My bestfren and sisters around me..so tak yah buang2 masa nak type kat sini..bising2 je kat dorang.and also mr hubby is getting better day by day.even still liat nak bg cash kat tgn but at least he provide everything that I needed.biarlah kalo tgk gaya dia sediakan menda2 yang I nee rupa mcm tak ikhlas..its between dia dan God...cuma bab2 keimanan nie..still beyond n sayup2 nak nampaknya...ais..hari2 doa saya tak henti2 semoga Allah buka hatinya dan lembutkan hati untuk menyembahMU ya ALLAH..

saya adalah sedih

dr semalam saya cuba perbetulkan keadaan, saya call he sound ok tapi dia tak call saya lgsg, tak reply email saya..tak kata apa2..saya sangat2 sedih..apa pun saya hanya berserah..saya sms dia supaya sudah sampai masa untuk tinggal sebumbung tetapi tiada balasan..saya kurang fokus apbl boss saya marah2 pagi ini and tghari saya kena lagi..aish..penatlah saya kerna menginvite doctor untuk ke conference..tapi tadi mereka yang beria2..mengapa yea

get over him

lately nie sumthing is not right sumwhere..i dont know belah mana yang tak betulnya..its me, its him..almost 2 weeks we didnt talk to each other and yet he still commented on my pic in fb...ntah lah..whats going on..and for godsake..aku lah plak dok teringat2 si buncit..dah kawin ke belum?eh mcm2 menda nak tau...sangat2..dok baca email gaduh lama2..aish..and yet gua rasa sedih?WTF!!! everytime tgk si syembam..lega sangat2...but nie bila dok jauh2 trus rasa tak best..menyampahnya lah!!!dengan yang jauh di mata dok eksen tak nak call2 i nie..org lupa anak bini lah ..ini namanya..

hey si OAA..apalah salahnya bertegur bertanya khabar

pregnancy period

Sepanjang me pregnant...start dr first time me tahu..tak abis2..hati me hurt..dek kerana perangai laki me yang selfish and cruel nie..and me tak pernah nampak jalan yang dia boleh change..and yet..me kesian baby dhia..belum apa2...mcm2 dia kena dgr apa me rasa towards her papa...am sorry DHIA..mak just cant help it and talk about it..start from 2 weeks pregnant and papa let me carry tong gas sorang2...belum kira mak kena buat semua household and he never helps...sbb pada dia he is the one who bring the money in..balik mesia at least..its heals a bit sbb i'd been surrounded with my family and fren..end the only fren that i met is wanana..sbb papa say no..cant go out..even the last time i went to wan;s place..dah jadi issue besar sbb papa tak nak mak kuar2 umah..what did he expect..i dok umah saja..OMG...stress nya mak rasa...and nak torture mak...papa tak nak kasi kita duit dah...how dhia..kita nak survive until at least end of april..kalau ada rezeki dhia mak akan keje awal may...hopefully mak keje awal may..even kalau mak belum cukup 44 days confinement..mak nak keje dah..mcmana kita nak survive...i think mak will miss ur 8 mths check up...sbb mak cant afford..mak nak beli menda makan pun, mak berkira sgt sekrg..sbb tu pun mak tak nak keluar jumpa kwn2 mak..sbb org kenal mak as org tak berkira and yet mak kena berkira sekrg sbb we dont even have money..nak pinjam pah and mytos..banyak sgt dah mak pinjam rasanya..tapi bila mak ikir banyak lagi org yang teruk dr mak and they survive...bukanmak tak cari keje masa mak pregnant nie tapi..takde org nak hire mak sbb perut mak dah besar...

inilah silap mak dhia...esok kita kena survive berdua..mak dah tak nak letak apa2 hope kat papa dhia..am sorry dhia...looks like menda kecik yang mak buat.papa exaggerate sbb nak escape dr bg kita belanja...and dhia..mak hope dia keluar kat dunia nie nanti, tak kisah lah atas tilam emas or normal bed..u'll be a good daughter...mak memang ada dhia je sekarang..and semua untuk dhia..

mak sayang dhia infinity